I would like to talk with Dutch HIV positive people

If there would be as much access to medication there as in Holland, Angela would love to go back to Ghana, her country. She misses living in unity with her family and neighbours.

“I live in Holland since 2005; the first three years I did not have documents and that was very difficult. I lost my brother, sister and mother because of aids. My mother was HIV positive, but she did not go for check-ups and they said it was meningitis. My brother died due to a shortage in medication. Sometimes they give you your medicine and sometimes not, because there is nothing in stock.”

“Here I have a very good doctor and most of the time I feel good. I do not worry about my health. You get good care in Holland, there is always medication; they ask you if you take it on time and they will know if you change anything. I found it very strange that I could choose whether to start medication or not. My CD4 count was 60, which was very low. And then they started to tell me that I was going to be sick of that medication, so did I really want it? I was very confused, because I did not want to die. I did not know what to tell them. In Ghana they just give you the medication and tell you to take it. There, the doctor is very powerful.”

“I like it here because the food is cheap and you have social services. But here, you also have a lot of bills and many regulations. I want to work, but my Dutch is not so good. If I want to go to school, I have to pay for it myself. Well, I do not have the money. That gives me a headache.
If there would be as much medication in Africa as in Holland, I would love to go back. There the family lives in unity, you see your neighbours every day, if you are cooking they help, they take care of your children if you go to the market. Life was very easy. Here, most of the time you have to pay to have people look after your children. And I don't see my neighbour for weeks.”

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“I am 32 and have four children. They are all healthy and well, not HIV positive. My first son is 12 years old, he brings home a lot of complaints. Other children say he has a big nose, they are teasing. The Moroccan and Turkish people who live here do not like Africans. Luckily, he plays football very well. He speaks Dutch very well, like his younger brother. The other two kids are still too small.”

I used to go to meetings where I could meet HIV positive people, but not now, I'm very busy with the children. It is very important to get in touch with other HIV positive people. Living here with HIV is the same for everyone, but I never sat down with Dutch persons with HIV. In Africa people have to come out for their HIV status because they are poor and need help. In Holland perhaps a lot of people are ill, but they have treatment and money and there is no need for coming out. That's a pity; I would like to talk with Dutch HIV positive people.


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